I'm totally numb. Like today for me example, the local overpass we have is a bit of a suicide hotspot and last week a young lad leapt to his death, 19 years old.
The entire railings are covered on one side with flowers, photos, poems, even his fecking glasses. The other side is now covered in A3 sized signs saying "don't jump, call someone, it'll pass etc"
It's so sad but my mind is so guarded.
Then you see these three little girls, then the news of more kids dead in Gaza or Golan or wherever, and it all just feels so unreal.
Like a day dream you have when you're driving somewhere far. I feel an overwhelming quiet, due to the deafening onslaught of the chaos everywhere I look.